Hello girls.
So 2010 right? You know what happened to all those promises that I made to myself? I failed! BIG!
These last two weeks were awful, I mean truly awful! I guess I probably gained all the weight I lost back... no kidding! Obviously I didn’t had the courage to weigh myself, otherwise I’d probably commit suicide.
I’ve been binging and purging a lot. My throat hurts so much right now and I’m so ashamed of my behaviour. Every single time that I’m doing ok, I screw things up. Sometimes (almost all the time) I wonder if I’ll be able to make it through, if I’ll be the winner of this marathon... but I must say... that’s very unlikely.
I wish I had good news to share with you guys, but unfortunately that’s not the case. But I’m not ready to throw in the towel! If I can breathe, I might as well keep on trying. I can’t let this negative attitude take over me. Baby steps (right Emily?). 2010 will NOT be like 2009! I won’t let it happen! This is my year and has barely begun, so I have plenty of time to change things and enjoy this life that has been given to me.
My new year’s was kind of funny, I didn’t go out, I was home drinking a whole bottle of vodka and chatting with a friend of mine on msn and man... it was SO funny! We laughed so much with our stupid drunk conversation.
And I wanna live for moments like these, I wanna laugh, hug the people I love and dance without feeling this weight over my shoulders.
A new week is about to start, so, let’s change too. It’s only food, not love. Our love and passion are out there, waiting for us! The world can be ours; so, let’s go and participate in it and not just being part of the audience.
Next time I come here, I'll tell more about myself, how I ended up with and eating disorder and how my life was back then and how things are today.
Hope you girls have an amazing sunday!
So 2010 right? You know what happened to all those promises that I made to myself? I failed! BIG!
These last two weeks were awful, I mean truly awful! I guess I probably gained all the weight I lost back... no kidding! Obviously I didn’t had the courage to weigh myself, otherwise I’d probably commit suicide.
I’ve been binging and purging a lot. My throat hurts so much right now and I’m so ashamed of my behaviour. Every single time that I’m doing ok, I screw things up. Sometimes (almost all the time) I wonder if I’ll be able to make it through, if I’ll be the winner of this marathon... but I must say... that’s very unlikely.
I wish I had good news to share with you guys, but unfortunately that’s not the case. But I’m not ready to throw in the towel! If I can breathe, I might as well keep on trying. I can’t let this negative attitude take over me. Baby steps (right Emily?). 2010 will NOT be like 2009! I won’t let it happen! This is my year and has barely begun, so I have plenty of time to change things and enjoy this life that has been given to me.
My new year’s was kind of funny, I didn’t go out, I was home drinking a whole bottle of vodka and chatting with a friend of mine on msn and man... it was SO funny! We laughed so much with our stupid drunk conversation.
And I wanna live for moments like these, I wanna laugh, hug the people I love and dance without feeling this weight over my shoulders.
A new week is about to start, so, let’s change too. It’s only food, not love. Our love and passion are out there, waiting for us! The world can be ours; so, let’s go and participate in it and not just being part of the audience.
Next time I come here, I'll tell more about myself, how I ended up with and eating disorder and how my life was back then and how things are today.
Hope you girls have an amazing sunday!
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
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