See, I can’t wait to be thin again and feel comfortable on my own skin. I wanna hang out with my friends and enjoy my life. To me, gaining weight is a terrible thing, because every time that I got fat, I isolate myself from the world, don’t go out and don’t even talk to my friends (over the phone or internet). I feel like they could find out that I got fat again, that I’m a pathetic girl that can’t even control herself, that says that doesn't eat, that food doesn't control her and then start to eat like a pig.
If it wasn’t for the pills, today I wouldn’t be capable of losing weight. Since I’ve become a compulsive eater I can’t eat like a normal person. Now I live of amphetamines and anti-anxiety medications plus my meds for the agoraphobia. I used to be a pretty outgoing girl but the ED has changed my life and only brought sadness and more diseases and phobias along.
Complaining does not help, so I have to get my butt out of the couch and start doing something about it, am I right? I sincerely hope that you guys feel the same way I do.
Because we are too good to be defeated by food.
"All the best people have bad chests and bone diseases. It's all frightfully romantic."
